m0rbidm00n (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} m0rbidm00n) wrote,@ 2008-04-21 15:03:00 |
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It's been snowing since Friday. Snowing and sticking, not just snowing and melting. Yesterday my mother and I went to the Tulip festival, my second trip this year. It was beautiful and awesome. I love it up there.
Lately, the past few months, six months, maybe more. I suppose that's not lately. I've felt really detached from everyone around me. I don't know why, but it's not just toward one person or another person, it's everyone. And if I'm bothered to personally deal with someone it annoys me, it frustrates me, like I don't want to take the time to deal with it. I don't understand. I can't .. hmm.. I can't figure it out. I just want to spend every minute of my time by myself, yet I constantly feel lonely. This feels random and not properly presented, but I'm just trying to get my feelings out. I have had so much anger in me lately that I blow up about everything and have patience for no one. Two weeks ago, in an attempt to relieve some of my frustration I start punching boxes in but ended up completely fucking up my hands. Bruises, cuts, blood, blah blah.
I'm not sure what to do really. Maybe I'll go finish editting some photos. Hm..
Lately, the past few months, six months, maybe more. I suppose that's not lately. I've felt really detached from everyone around me. I don't know why, but it's not just toward one person or another person, it's everyone. And if I'm bothered to personally deal with someone it annoys me, it frustrates me, like I don't want to take the time to deal with it. I don't understand. I can't .. hmm.. I can't figure it out. I just want to spend every minute of my time by myself, yet I constantly feel lonely. This feels random and not properly presented, but I'm just trying to get my feelings out. I have had so much anger in me lately that I blow up about everything and have patience for no one. Two weeks ago, in an attempt to relieve some of my frustration I start punching boxes in but ended up completely fucking up my hands. Bruises, cuts, blood, blah blah.
I'm not sure what to do really. Maybe I'll go finish editting some photos. Hm..
